player playlist Star Angel

Speaking frequently
Never saying anything
Always around
Somehow still absent
Busy schedule
Nothing but free time

About time to rethink energy spent
Too much wasted on mediocre pursuits
Many lost to thinking and reminiscing
Now is the time to prioritize
Start clean and refresh everything

The weird guilt hangs over my head
“I should have kept my mouth shut”
Speaking on things of concern
And others that I didn’t understand
Words spoken speak volumes now
What would talking about it now really do…
Nothing but give me clarity on how to act
Which brings the question to light
Why not just be… Myself?
If not, i would simply be repeating
Reliving mistakes of the past

When I was little, I always heard the saying…
Young people know a lot about the common cents
Yet, somehow missed out on the common sense

And I follow with the question…
What is common sense anymore?

blackmanonthemoon:

It is always a troubling wonder to explore the soul of your significant other

how my fingers continue to dance and travel,

guided by the sudden shift in her hips, quiver of her lips and the way my tongue loses feeling at her dark brown eyes

publicly i accuse her of being a blessing while…

vivianvivisection:

straight boys think girls can’t take compliments, and that’s ridiculous cause i’ve seen so many girls compliment each other, i’ve seen conversations & friendships blossom from girls complimenting each other in line, on the street, at school waiting for the bys, pretty much anywhere.

the problem is straight boys think sexual harassment & assault are compliments.

(via mareepoppinthatpussy)

The scent travels through the air
Filling the corners of my lungs
A smell with no origin
And it frightens me
Smoke
Alarms in my mind ring
Extinguish it!
But where is it coming from?
I blink once.
Twice.
Rubbing my eyes
Hoping for a better view
Snap
Eyes lock.
Longing caught
Wings flutter
Skin tingles
I am nervous
Still frightened
And located the source
Where the heat burns deep.
Yet, kept under control.
Drawn to it yet afraid
It lights a fire in my mind
Flashes of memories
Followed by a new feeling
Creating complication
And I shrug it away.
Forgetting it until next time

In a time of my life

I was literally alone
Covered in leeches

Calling out for release

For my time to stop

Nightmares plagued

And sleep evaded

Body ill and mind lost

I wanted to stay lost

It took enough of others
Giving to me
Exactly what I was already feeling

Throwing

Attacking

Verbally spitting

Laughing

Scheming

Sabotaging

Game playing
Revenge taking
And it drove me crazy

When I realized I had enough
That’s when things changed
Slowly, ever so slowly
And I made the change
I am still changing
The nightmares gone
The loneliness disappeared
The anger dissipated
The illness healed
The pain lessened
The confusion cleared

I started seeing clearer
When blind unknowingly
Once you can really see
The damage before you is great
It takes time to recover
And then to build again
I am building.
Brick by brick.
Clearing the rubble
And throwing away the unnecessary
Tossing the useless thing
And building up the true me
The beautiful me
The me hidden behind
All the depression and things
So now, I spread my wings
One step closer
To flying free.